Unemployment, bitterness and the Japanese language

I get antsy really quick. I have about a 17 minute sit in quiet silence capacity. Any amount of time greater than that and I start fidgeting and devising ways to annoy those around me.

If I'm working this isn't a problem since I'm usually talking, explaining something or trying to coax a small Korean child out of the cupboard they just crawled into. But this unemployment thing blows. Sarah's apartment lacks both internet access and television which means the entire apartment is eerily quiet once she leaves to go to work. So I'm left with my boredom.

I've been reading tons and I started studying Japanese and I've been going to the gym regularly. Still, these thing kill only so much time. Japanese, especially is frustrating and I can only take 2o minute bouts at it before I want to throw my book in the trash (three alphabets?! WHY?!?).

I have been getting a lot of errands done. I got my tickets home (November 20th can't come soon enough). I've been getting my pension and banking stuff squared away. I've been looking at Japan jobs online and getting references and applications in. But again, I'd rather be working.

Having this much free time in a country that I'm slowly starting to hate is not a good thing. Though I settled everything with my boss and got most of what I was owed, I am still really bitter over the whole thing and it has stained Korea for me. I am frustrated by little things that I used to laugh at or chalk up to cultural difference. It's harder to let things go and I am literally counting the days til I'm home. I've never done that while I've been abroad before.

But things aren't all that bleak here. I have a few weddings to attend in the next 4 weeks and there are still things that I want to see in Korea. Plus, I have a good chance of getting a part time, two week gig, next week which would help immensely.

We'll see how the next few weeks pan out.